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I am up right now and the computer is on. I turned it off last night didn't I? And I see a bottle of vodka opened up on my table, but I never drink vodka with cranberry.

I am trying to backtrack. After I blogged I went out for tampons. When I came back I patted myself down but nothing. I freaked . I ran around looking for them. Went back to the Duane Reade. I was freaking out asking everyone if they had seen my keys. Then I put my hand in my pocket and found my key. I had figured out I had tekn it off my keychain since it was so bulky.

This is really starting to scare me. Back in college I went through this forgetfulness pahse. I mean we are talking Memento level. Anyways I was having these blackouts. It really freaked me out because I would wake up in my dorm and not remember how I got there. I kept forgetting my books,. There was one time I was in charge of a social and I forgot ot bring the beer.

The doctor checked me out and said it was to due to stres, lack of sleep and large amounts of partying. My parents were relieved. I didn't find out later but they were arranging rehab for me after I missed my flight home for Thanksgiving. Apparently an intervention was in the process that I found out until afterwards.

I am going to turn off the computer. I am going to take the keyboard and place it next to my bed. That way I know I am not crazy.